Saturday, October 30, 2010

Panic Switch




This is how I feel. Broken.
I wish there was a button I could just switch to make me not be in love anymore. But despite everything. I still do. Aren't I stupid. Last year this time I was happy, excited, peaceful. I thought I had found "him". You know the one. True story I had never met anyone who made me wanna be a better person. Who made me change my old ways. And yet maybe it wasn't him.
Maybe I just grew up.

Friday, October 29, 2010

Pale Shelter

T2i - Desire is the very Essence of Man

How can I be sure ?
When your intrusion is my illusion
How can I be sure
When all the time you changed my mind
I asked for more and more
How can I be sure
When you don't give me love
You gave me Pale shelter
You don't give me love
You give me cold hands
And I can't operate on this failure
When all I want to be is
Completely in command
How can I be sure
For all you say you keep me waiting
How can I be sure
When all you do is see me through
I asked for more and more
How can I be sure
I've been here before
There is no why, no need to try
I thought you had it all
I'm calling you, I'm calling you
I ask for more and more
How can I be sure

Yellow

550d - London Yellow

I go crazy

crazy.man.house

Well lately the blogs have been all over the place between upset, heartbroken and angry. Its how I process I guess. Stay tuned, things will turn around. In the meantime enjoy the crazy.

How's it going to be

Smoke, Sand & Silk ~ Hug Point, Oregon

I wonder how its gonna be when you you don't me.

Shiver

The Shiver Tree


...Did you want me to change?...
I changed for you.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Its oh so quiet

Fantastic Mr. Fox

Time after Time

Frank Lloyd Wright Design

So today I got an invite to the Robe house. Special party invite, to private areas of home etc. It should be you I'm going with.

Simple Kind of Life

My Playground at Sunset - HDR


For a long time I was in love
Not only in love, I was obsessed
With a friendship that no one else could touch
It didn't work out, I'm covered in shells

And all I wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life
And all I needed was a simple man
So I could be a wife

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Fake Plastic Trees




I feel like a prize idiot. He was right. I didn't know him at all. If this is who he is I'm glad I never really knew him.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

All these things that I have done




How did I wind up back here?

Hero




I'm getting over the sad and moving in to angry. Especially when someone hurts you financially. On purpose.

...I'm the hero of this story, I don't need to be saved...

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Sometime Later




Tomorrow I'm going to Ikea. It's been awhile since I've been. I loved our trips there. Just to wander....
It won't be the same without you.

Run




Even if you can't hear my voice, I'll be right beside you dear.


Haunted When the Minutes Drag




This is for when you feel something...

Cath...




I love Death Cab for Cutie. Their music calms me. Lately this song has been in all my playlists. To all of you in the wide open...listen to more Death Cab it's good for the soul.

Strange Overturns





Thursday, October 21, 2010

Woman




Tonight I watched Coco before Chanel. It was lovely and sad and yet inspiring.
What an amazing woman.

There She Goes




...and I just can't contain this feeling that remains...

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

I'll meet you in St Louis





Hey there Delilah




Even more in love with me you'd fall....we'd have it all

Jane Says




This just says it all.

I've Seen It All

Mediate

I've seen it all, I've seen the dark
I've seen the brightness in one little spark.
I've seen what I chose and I've seen what I need,
And that is enough, to want more would be greed.
I've seen what I was and I know what I'll be
I've seen it all - there is no more to see!

Chasing Cars

Where ya going lil guy?

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things
Will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Only the Lonely





Crash in to Me

SquareMouth

Today all I feel is apathy

In Between Days

A mad sky

Yesterday I got so old
I felt like I could die
Yesterday I got so old
It made me want to cry
Go on go on
Just walk away
Your choice is made
Go on go on
And disappear
Go on go on
Away from here

And I know I was wrong
When I said it was true
That it couldn't be me and be her
In between without you
Without you

Yesterday I got so scared
I shivered like a child
Yesterday away from you
It froze me deep inside
Come back come back
Don't walk away
Come back come back
Come back today
Come back come back
Why can't you see
Come back come back
Come back to me

And I know I was wrong
When I said it was true
That it couldn't be me and be her
In between without you
Without you

Monday, October 18, 2010

I'll look after you




If I don't say this now
I will surely break
As I'm leaving the one
I want to take
Forgive the urgency but
Hurry up and wait
My heart has started to separate

I'll Be Seeing You




I wish I could go back to when I thought I meant something to you. I wish words could be taken back. I miss you so much. What should I do? How can I go to sleep without tears? I feel so sad. Sometimes I think maybe you'll fight for us. Tell me you can't be without me. But then after a minute of the peace. Peace that comes from fooling myself. I realize it won't. Then I'm broken all over.

Haunted when the minutes drag

Kiasma 12

You know I just realized I can't remember the last time I got a hug.

Just Another Day

The Lovers are Losing

I haven't felt this empty before. When will it go away? It almost feels literally like someone is standing on my chest. The days don't get better. I give up. I will just keep living.
I don't know what I could do that would make me feel better when I'm all alone with my thoughts.

Fix You

Flowers


When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Thursday, October 14, 2010

All You Do is Talk

Looking up at the rain coming down

Breaking us in two

Bullet the Blue Sky

Could we be much closer if we tried
We could stay at home and stare into each other's eyes
Maybe we could last an hour
Maybe then we'd see right through
Always something breaking us in two

Monday, October 11, 2010

Joey

sad bokeh friday

This weekend I went to Kentucky to visit my cousin with my uncles. It was just what I needed. Yet we went on a drive through the mountains. It was so much fun. And it made me think of that last time we went on a drive.
Was I the only one having fun? Was I the only one who felt safe and happy? Man you would've had so much fun if you where there.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Por Toda la Minha Vida




I love Habla Con Ella...it's art with a great story & amazing soundtrack. Certain songs move me so. This one. This one makes me cry.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Lost




I'm in love. And I'm alone.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Destiny





One Day Like This




...These are words I'd never say...

Someone tell me how I feel

Don't Get Me Wrong




I miss my imaginary life

Sometime Later




Touch my hand,
It's all in me listen,
I'm here.
Come to stand
In sultry fields
With you,
And now,
Hold down in day,
I know it's over this way,
I'm laughing,
So you're gonna kiss me,
You say yeah as I say,
One day she ?? ,
A lonely bird,
Alone.
Judgement day,
So the world is gone,
I'm hurt,
So the sea,
That's how it feels to me
I hate the world it's sad to see
I take you away and you heart fades away
Today ??
To lay the words but ??
I mean it, you don't force on my head
Kill our nightmare
A lonely bird, a lonely bird
A lonely bird, a lonely bird
A lonely bird, a lonely bird
Color me,
Cover me in the color that reminds you,
Solemnly,
Could make the same mistake,
and you would never know,
But I am, but I am,
Alone, now,
Something, something, tells me that you,
Have something,
All, all others now,
You have taken over me now,
Call at me, hey,
Oh little love,
Call at me in person,
Please oh,
Me, oh.
Hold the sun down, hold the sun down
Hold the moon down, leave me the rest,
Wonder on me,
To the world I,
Only relief is to slip through the net,
Hold a minute
And stop for a minute
And go,
Hold a minute,
You say to me,
Say to me and
We, we, we, we ....
You say to me
Sometime later.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Selah

Harvest Moon 2010

Too Late

Cuba Gallery: Cute / adorable / child / portrait / eyes / light / photography


I look into your eyes
Diving into the ocean
I look into your eyes
Falling!

Like a wall of stars
We are ripe to fall

And if you are a ghost
I'll call your name again
And if you are a ghost
I'll call your name . . .

You, always

Hero

" Nuage d'eau ..."

I'm the hero of the story
Don't need to be saved


...no ones got it all...

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Friday, October 1, 2010

Somewhere Only We know

This could be the end of everything...


And if you have a minute why don't we go...
talk about it somewhere only we know...

Last this Day

SAD





Please last this day
Stay one more day